DILLUSIONAL?
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me?
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well, I don't think you know me enough to call me that, so has it ever occured to you that perhaps....
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YOU'RE THE DILLUSIONAL ONE!
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*All smiles*......okay
but still DAMN TULAN.
after only 2 daiquiris last night and i did the worse thing anyone could ever do. i opened the gap.
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when are you gonna marry me?
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*Gasps!*
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fuck! what the fuck was i thinking?! But it was out and I could only plaster on a smile and face the un-known. Fatty's shocked face.
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And the answer dawned on me.
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*wails!*
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He's doesn't want to marry me!!!!
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serves me right for popping that question. I'm a confirmed MORON.
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Mother Nature is playing an extremely NASTY trick on me! And this is not the first time she's doing this to me. She's been playing this trick on me so many many times, and yet, time and time again, I've been falling into the same trap and getting myself all vulnerable and confused.
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Eeesh, and I thought people are suppose to learn from their mistakes.
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It's funny really. She's been feeding me with really interesting looking chocolates - chocolates that comes in different shapes and sizes and they all look soooo yummy!
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But there is always something wrong with it.
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These chocolates she gives me, they all taste really good and sweet BUT only with the first bite. Then the blardy things start getting more bitter and bitter at the second and third bites. And it's all the same.
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It gets to such a state of bitterness that I can't go on anymore and so, I have no choice but to spit it out and throw the remains away.
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The current chocolate that I now have is begining to turn bitter. I can feel it at the tip of my tongue already, ready to engulf my whole sense of taste and to leave a thick layer of disgusting, gooey, bitterness as an aftertaste.
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Should I continue eating or do I throw it away now?
But what if the next chocolate I pick up turns bitter as well? And the one after and the one after and the one after?
Should I give up on this chocolate now?
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I've been trying to improve on it's taste. Adding sugar. I've been adding so much sugar, I might die from diabetes one day. The bitterness isn't as strong as before anymore, but it's still there. Do I have to keep adding sugar all the time to keep the bitterness at bay?
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I might run out of sugar one day.
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But I'm stubborn. And this is one chocolate I want to eat till the very end. Bitter or not. But how long can I hold on for before it turns really bitter?
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Or will it surprise me and turn sweet in the end?
TWO & A HALF MEN is not showing on NTV7 anymore and they didn't even inform anyone about it. My poor baby. And he was sooo excited when daddy went to sleep so that he could get the whole TV to himself.
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I'll try to download the whole season for you okay, sweetie.
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Don't know what got into me *femme shrugs* but I was swept over with the strongest craving for strawberry daiquiri two weeks ago and I just couldn't find a place that served that sweet alcoholic drink that could curb my cravings.
For two weeks I looked and I finally found it tonight! At Chilis.
Had three in less than 2 hours.
It was sooooo good!
Didn't come home drunk though. Perhaps a little tipsy cause I was laughing more than usual but it was a happy feeling.
I think I'll be back for more daiquiris soon *hiccup*
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WAILS!!!
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Tell me again why I was born a woman??? I just need to know. So at least then I won't feel like it's all so NOT worth it when I'm suffering from severe, pain in the lower parts of my abdomens while bleeding instesively for 5 whole fucking days!!!
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Woke up this morning telling myself cannot depend too much on ponstan somemore, so went to work without bringing it along with me, you know, for just-in-case moments. fuck. BIGGIE mistake.
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I am sitting here now (IN PAIN!) and I can't even do anything about it but suffer in silence (like the adult that I am). But I don't wanna be an adult! I wanna moan and groan about it so much so that my sweet little boss (not!) will let me go home early.
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But no, at moments like these when I need him around the most to watch me writhe in pain and suffer in agony, he has to be like a gazillion miles away from me in China and I can't even show him how much pain I'm in and ---
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Wait a minute...*femme thinks*....he's not here.
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Then wtf am I still here for???!!!
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Confirm brains not working!
Should I or should I not CUT MY HAIR???!!!
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I know I told myself that I will grow it out again, but when I said that, I forgot about the part where it'll start to get all wirely and curly and getting all tentacles-like. Pictures Medusa. *femme sighs...*
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Which is exactly what it looks like NOW!!!
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So...I'm thinking, maybe a little trim? Or a nice bob? Nothing too short of course. I don't wanna 'surprise' SK like what happened the last time I chopped off all my hair. But something sophisticated, short, and chic. Like what I had when I was....erm....*femme thinks*.....20? Yeah, 20 years old. That feels like such a looooooong time ago.
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Oh gaaaaawd.....
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Boooooorrrriiiiinnnnnggggggggg!!! I just wanna do something to my hair lah. Like straighten it, dye it, perm it (yah right) or just cut it. Eeeesh....
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But then horr....this girl cannot make up her mind also horrr.....cause want to keep her hair long also horr.....so, what to do lah?
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I walk through the swinging doors and go straight to the information counter.
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Hi, I read from outside that you do pep-smear here. When is the doc in?
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The nurse looks at me, "We do have it but we don't do it for virgins in case we accidently tear their you know" and she gives me a knowing grin.
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Okay, so when does the doc come in?
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She's exasperated. "Like I said, we don't do it for virgins. Hope you understand".
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Rolls eyes.
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I'm NOT a virgin. OK? So, when does the doc get in?
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I see realization dawn on her face.
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Sigh....
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Do I look like a gawd-damned VIRGIN!!!???
It's ironic, really.
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One day, the sun is shining with all it's might, the wind is gentle and carresses your face as it blows softly by, birds are singing in the trees and the skies are blue, as blue as can be, and suddenly the next day, the sun is gone, the wind is howling eerily and slaps at your face, there are no birds to be seen or heard anywhere and the blue skies has been replaced with dark, rumbling clouds, threatening to break apart to drown you.
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How can there be such a drastic change in less than 24 hours? I mean, that is totally impossible. But it is. And it is happening to me right now.
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Suddenly, there is nothing to look forward to anymore. Nothing. Just the road that goes on and on for miles, and nobody knows where it actually leads to.
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Who knows? It might take a sudden turn somewhere and lead me right to the beach, where I'm working my ass off so hard right now to be. Or, it might just go on and on and I will have no choice but to walk on and on, hoping that somehow, it would lead me somewhere nice at the end. Or, I might just find out that I was meant to walk this path alone and miserable for the rest of my living years. I don't know. I can only continue walking and just hope for something.
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Such a sorry ass I am.
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But this is my life I guess.
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A sorry ass life.
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I'm so so so miserable.
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But work is good. It makes a great painkiller.
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I guess I'll be working very hard from now on.
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Sigh.....it's gonna be a long long life....
Okay, so this is not really me. But someone commented that I reminded him of this character. Kindda cool actually. And what a coincidence as my fav colour in the whole world is purple too!
Morrigan is very vain, and lives for little more than the excitement of
battle, although her endings in the games as well as various media show that
Morrigan slowly takes up more of her responsibility seriously. She appears
as a beautiful woman with long, light green hair, and bat-like wings on her back and the sides of her head. Morrigan can reshape these wings into spikes and blades
when attacking her enemies, as well as using them to shield herself from
enemy attacks. Her wings can also separate from her, and form into a
cloud of bats.She uses a variety of magical attacks as well.
Although Demitri would seem to fill the spot, it is often suggested and implied that Morrigan is the main character of the Darkstalkers series, due to her importance in the overall story as well as her many appearances outside of her game series. She may even be considered the protagonist or something of
an anti-hero, since despite her demonic appearance and nature, she is not evil.
Do I look like the Spawn of the Devil to you???
3. It's obvious we both share the same religion (see the picture above, she's wearing a cross and I'm praying religiously in the Gothic Cathedral in Cologne).
4. We're both playful and we love sticking out our tongues for the camera. And we even tilt our heads to one side when we do it! I mean, who can get more similar than that.
6. *ahem*....yes, erm, we love girl on girl action. Of course, I haven't gone to her stage and I will never but she loves women, and so do I (fine, I was drunk when this happened). And just to set the records straight, bothof us (me & the girl I was kissing) are straight and 100% pure female.
Well, yeah, one more thing. The ONLY thing we actually really have a vast difference in, is this. Gee, how does she keep balance in a battle?So, I heard that they spin really good retro music on Friday nights.
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So, I heard that it's 'the most' happening place to be right now.
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So, I heard the crowd's really good-looking but you have to be 18 (or at least look like one) to be seen there.
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And so, I decided to go check it out.
And boy was I disappointed BIG TIME.
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Rubs, good things you didn't join me there.
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The DJ could not spin for nuts.
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There certainly were NO retro music booming from the speakers because I definitely did not hear any.
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Instead, it was weird sounds like as if the DJ didn't know how to use the damn mixer. I couldn't even move to the beat and you guys know how I can dance to just about anything.
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The crowd - oh gawd - don't even let me go there. Most of them were still babies! All young teenage girls and boys trying to look older than what they really are.
And ONE bottle of Jack's would have set me back about RM400. Yes, it was thaaaat pricy. And for a place like Laundry. It just don't cut right.
But, I have not given up on this place yet. Obviously, this place is 'the most' happening place at the moment for a reason, and I'm gonna find out why.
Perhaps I dropped by at the wrong time and everything was just going wrong.
So, I will make an appearance there one more time just to see if this place is really 'the most' happening place to be.
But in the mean time, while I recover from last night's nightmare, I'd rather take a drive up the hills for more Durian Tempura.
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I was such a bitch...
Am I still one?
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He was soooo excited about it the last time he went up that he wanted to bring some down for me to try, but to his utter dismay, he wasn't allowed to tapow. I guess they were afraid that someone else might steal their recipe (I hope someone does too....and fast! And this person better be in KL) or perhaps it just won't taste and look as good as it is suppose to be when someone take-away. Warning! This is ONLY for durian lovers. Non-durian lovers wouldn't
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So, instead of bringing it down to me and since he didn't have a choice, he brought me up to it.
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What am I talking about? Why, the famous Durian Tempura from Imperial Rama in Gentings, of course.
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I've never actually heard about it until he told me but I'm sure it's famous in its own ways. Because there were many people who were there just for the purpose of eating it.
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The restaurant itself was as grand as its name. From the outside, it looks small and quaint but once you step beyond that, whoa....the decor is magnificent! You walk pass a waiting area where they have huge, comfy sofas all lined up along the sides for people who needs to take a fag or for those who are just waiting for friends. Well, I know what I want to do on those sofas....*evil grin*
Then you will come to another entrance where a waitress / waiter would be waiting for you and bring you to your seat. The interior is grand as well, with high ceilings and long floor to ceiling glass windows.
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It definitely does not look like the typical Thai-Chinese restaurants that we get here in KL.
Of course, we ordered what we came up for - the Durian Tempura. It costs RM6 per piece. Ok ok lah, still can afford. We also ordered the Spicy Chicken Feet Salad, Rice in Superior Soup and he had the Thap Thim Krop too.
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I wanted the Mango Sticky Rice as well but decided against it. Like they say, never let a hungry man (or woman, in this case) order less you end up with more than you can consume.
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So we dug in. I must say, for the price we paid and for all the rumors about Genting's sucky food, the food here was actually delicious!
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And then, finally, the Durian Tempura.
even want to come near this dish.
It comes in a shape of a square and is covered with aromatic, crispy tempura flour, fried to a golden perfection and looks so yummylicious, you can't wait to devour it with your barehands. But bear in mind, we are after all, dining in a fine-dining restaurant, so no hands, ok.
And when you cut it open, thick, gooey durian melts just ooze its way out of its cave and onto your plate, causing you to salivate and dribble all over the place. The durian is still warm inside and the first bite is like --- HEAVEN!
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It's better when it's warm and just out from the kitchen. No wonder they don't allow take-aways.
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Trust me, it's TO DIE FOR! Go try it.
Well, it was definitely worth the price and the effort bringing me up there, ain't it?
Crazy people are like crawling all over the place. They are like cockroaches, lurking in dark corners and when you least expect to see one, they scurry out from their hiding places and runs across your feet.
Bye-bye little cockroach! Have fun in your afterlife - if you even have one.
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I wish....
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....to own my own PR agency
....to scream at the top of my lungs without anyone thinking that I'm crazy
....to travel the world
....to visit all the beautiful beaches there are
....to be able to help all the homeless children in this world
....to be able to turn around and see the ocean dancing behind me
....to have bigger eyes
....to be able to not give a care about what the world thinks about my body
....or about what I look like
....to be able to go by myself everyday
....to have a slimmer waistline
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I want....
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....to wake up every morning in his arms
....to have my own baby nestled on my breast
....to have the perfect wedding
....to look into his eyes to know that he loves me
....to hold his hand and feel his strength
....to feel important to him
....to make all our wishes come true
....to walk down the aisle and see him waiting for me
....to see our children grow
....to grow old with our good friends
....to be a mother
....to be able to tell him how much I love him right now
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I can't wait....
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....to meet God
....to ask Him the many questions that are playing in my head
....for our new place to be ready
....to move in together with him
....to cook our first meal
....to get my dream car
....to start earning more than what I earn now
....to see what he has in store to surprise me when he proposes
....for them to start calling me Aunt
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I'm seriously thinking of....
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....quiting my job
....starting out on my own
....slapping my boss across his face
....going on a non-carbs diet
....joining the gym again
....shaving myself bald
....getting a Brazillian wax
....one more tatoo
....piercing my tongue again
....getting my eyes done
I'm in love.
I am soooo deeply in love, I might just strangle myself if I don't get one of these if he doesn't get me one of these (by the way, I like the pink one).
Have always fancied myself holding one of these babies while I'm out traveling, or lazing by the beach, or even in the office and the pink one looks so totally hot!
I also need this! Yes, 'need' not 'want'. I NEED this.
Imagine, with the 'busy' schedule I keep these days, it's amazing how I have managed to get by all these while without the 02 xda atom organizing me. Wow! Sometimes, I just amaze myself with all my capabilities.
However, I still NEED to have this to help me organise my up-coming busy days.
Trust me, babes, you will benefit from it too once you get me one of these.
But of course, to have up-coming busy days, I would really, seriously need this ring (just to start the ball rolling, you know). I'm not too sure how much it cost but I don't think it'll be thaaaaat expensive. After all, it's only from Tiffany & Co. *cough*cough*ahem*cough*
So, once I have THIS ring on my finger, the busy days will definitely start coming. So much planning to do, the food, the venue, the transportation, the gowns, so much to do so much to do, its ridiculous! Therefore the much needed 02 xda atom, darling.
All the running around, hustling and bustling here and there would really quite tire me out, you know. And sending me to the spa every single day would be rather pricy, my dear, so I really don't mind just settling for the Osim uZap massage belt.
Imagine, with this, I won't even be bugging anyone for a massage!
Now, how about that!
(by the way, honey, I'm free this entire weekend for shopping!)
If you've been thinking about entering into a formal study of astrology,
numerology or other occult science, Kristy , this is the day to get started.
There may be a school or teacher nearby that you've been considering. By doing
this you could open up doors to new knowledge, meet some new friends who share
your interests, and actually steer your life in a fascinating new direction.
Pick up the phone and do the first step!
You shouldn't be eating that! If you wanna shit, you have to eat this, this.
and this and that that that......
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In the mean time, have a great weekend, peeps!
I just got off the phone after a very long argument with him. Ironically, up till now, I still don't know what he was so upset about. I still don't know what went so wrong that caused us to fight from last night. In fact, I think I'm a little more confused now compared to when he first called me this morning.
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It's like blowing something out of proportion.
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It's like making a mountain out of a molehill.
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It's like consuming a tea spoon of Coloxyl and a whole load of shit comes out.
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It's like DOWNRIGHT ridiculous!
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Why wanna go fight fight fight, argue argue argue about something that is so insignificantly small and waste time for? Time that can be used for better things somemore.
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It's like this. We spend so much time blaming one another for things that did or did not go wrong but in the end, what happens? It's either we kiss and make up, or we walk seperate ways. So what was all the fuss made up for in the first place?
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Take for example, the bombers in the Sept 11th attack on the World Trade Centre. Spend so much time hi-jacking the plane only to have it crash into the building. And then you die. So you say you did it for the love of your country. So you say your name will go down in history. Bullshit! Your leader won't give two hoots about you. After all, he's got what he wanted, you think he will spend time grieving for you or declaring you as hero. No lorr.
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You killed yourself all for what? Only to end up forever in hell together with Botak Chin and Hitler kan? Happy meh?
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And those people who spend so much time trafficking drugs. You go through so much risks just to earn easy money and then in the end what happens? You got time to spend that money meh? Got time to go buy nice nice clothes, go eat yummy yummy food and live in big big house meh? No right. Because in the end, you get caught and get sentenced to death right. So make life so susah for what?
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All I'm saying is why do people have to fight? Why can't everyone just be happy, be understanding and just appreciate what we have?
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After all, life is only so long. It all ends one day. You fight so much for what? In the end also you die right? Give people so much problems for what? In the end also mati kan?
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Be happy lah! Be understanding! Love each another.
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Then in the end, die also die happy.
Everybody, meet Pearlz.
She's one of my buddies, my work-mate, my laughing partner, my pedicure kaki, my advisor @ work, my entertainer (to help me pass time at work), my partner in crime, my bully victim - all in all, she's one of my favourite biatches and I love her to pieces!
Of course, there are the times when I so feel like cekik-ing her because she can be so absolutely mean to me, but then again, if I do kill her, I'd have nothing to look forward to when I got to work.
Like the time when she fucking tempted me with Maggie Mee Curry! Knowing very well that I have to stay away from anything spicy thanks to that operation I had to go through a couple of weeks ago, she still popped open that cup of noodles, poured hot boiling water over it and tempted me with the absolutely, yummy-licious, aroma of powdered maggie mee curry, wafting so very smoothly straight into my nostrils - which were of course, buldging with every sniff.
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Sluuuurrrrrrp!
She even had the audacity to lean over to show it to me, thus bringing the smell closer to my nose. I was surprised my nose just didn't drop straight into the cup and inhaled the whole thing in. Ok, erm....that's disgusting.
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Pearlz is happily married and have a two year old daughter, Tasha.
I have many friends who are happily married with children and dogs and fishes and houses but somehow, the relationship between Pearlz and Pat is very different and it stands out among all my other married friends.
They have been married for 4 and a half years and yet, when they are together, they look like as if they have just started dating for 2 weeks.
Sitting from right across her at work, I can hear her mobile ringing all the time with that annoying ring tone of hers too. I think anyone at work would have recognised the ringtone to be Pat's personal tone by now. Even the guy with ONE ear can tell. Pat sms-es her like a thousand times a day, and, of course, vice-versa.
SK and I call each another a thousand times a day as well, but that's because we haven't been married for 4 and a half years! Hell, we're not even married!
A relationship like what Pat and Pearly have is very very hard to come by. Sad to say, these days, most relationships do not last that long. And even if they do, the couple is probably together because they have been together that long and they've become too lazy to go search for somebody else.
In other words, they've been coccooned into their comfort zone.
I would love to have a relationship like they do, but sadly, I do not know what will become of SK and I after 4 years of marriage and a two year old kid.
We could be spending more time making more kids.
We might have killed each another by then.
Or, we might not even last that long.
But I would love working the relationship towards making more kids - or at least the process of making more kids *winks*
