Sometimes I wonder

Sometimes I wonder
Where you are
Its been so long since I've seen you
My life has moved on quite far
If you don't already know
I'm married to a wonderful man
And a gorgeous daughter
We have to show
My life is now quite perfect
Compared to back then
I hope you've been well
And that your life is settled down
Because the way you were living
It was definitely jail bound
.
Sometimes I think back
On the way things were back then
How much laughter and joy we shared
How in discipline we lack
Five years we shared
Though we were only twelve
But it was in those growing years
That played such an important role
That these feelings we cannot shelve
.
I was so young and naive back then
And openly trusted and believed in everything you did
I gave you all I had
And you turned back with nothing in hand
You took advantage of me
And the kindness me and my family bestowed on you
I never knew someone could be so cunning
So mean, deceiving and untrue
.
Many lessons I learnt
Throughout the time we had
And these lessons I carry with me till today
To prevent my heart and feelings again from being hurt and burnt
Although I hate what you did to me
I still want to thank you
For making me into the person I am
Stronger, more confident and not easily lied to
.
Which is why no matter what happened
It is now all in the past
History it remains
All bound up in my memories in a cast
And so at times I still think of you
Of memories shared in the past
I wish life has been great for you
As it has been for me since I saw you last
Perhaps one day we'll meet when I've discovered
That everything you did to me has been forgiven
Until then, I will sometimes still wonder
If you are still alive and happily living.