Flying off

I DID IT!!!

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I did I did I did I did!!!

Like finally but I did it!

And I'm extremely happy about it!

So happy can die. But I won't die, cause I'm too happy!

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I've RESIGNED!

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Oh yes, I have!

Been waiting to do this for too long now and I'm glad the waiting is over and I can finally fly away from this cage - to a bigger cage >_<'

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But I won't tell you yet where I'll be going to.

Surprise it shall be.

Hahaha!

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BEIJING

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here I come.

two more days to go and I'll be off to see the world!

gosh, I'm feeling so terribly happy clappy today it's nauseating.

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this will probably be my last blog before I go off to Beijing, so be prepared for a photo post when I get back.

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have a great weekend people!

Wait

I do not want to use the word 'busy' to explain my lack of blogs over the pass week but I just can't seem to find any other words to describe my disappearance, so yeah, I was busy.

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Busy doing what, I'm not too sure, but somehow, time just flies by and before I know it, one whole week has gone out the window.

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Things at work has been getting worse and worse and I'm so darn bloody close to slapping the resignation letter accross my boss's face. But I shan't give in to temptation until the right time comes, and so, I shall wait.

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Wait...

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I despise that word so much. So much that it eats me whole and then makes me puke it out. I hate it so much that just blogging about it now is making me turn green and purple. I hate the word as much as I hate lizards! In fact, compared to lizards, I feel that I can kiss one now. And that's how deeply my hatred runs for that word. Wait.

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Because that's what I've been doing this whole week.

Waiting.

Waiting for an answer. For ONE fucking answer. One simple YES or NO.

And until now, I'm still waiting!

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But I know this wait is worthwhile, and that's why I AM still waiting.

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And I sure do hope that the answer I'm waiting for, will be the answer that I want.

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-_-'

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We're flying off to Beijing next weekend!!!

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Yes, me and my sisters and my mummy and daddy. And I'm so extremely excited! It's the first time I'm actually stepping foot into China, and I heard from everyone that everything is cheap cheap cheap in Beijing! So, I'll definitely be shop shop shopping!

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Shopping is good.

It's a good way to mend a broken soul.

And a good way to de-stress.

And I'm extremely stressed-up at the moment.

Therefore, shopping is good for me.

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Another all expenses-paid-for trip with shopping allowance too!

Now, how cool is that?

I doubt I'd get to enjoy these priviledges anymore once I'm married and booted out of the family. Harr harr!

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Fatty will have to stay home and look after Sha-Sha for the week that we'll be away. Good for him. Training before he becomes a father one day. And fatherhood is gonna come soon yah. Like perhaps next year? *winks*

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But that will have to wait till our wedding is over.

And wedding will have to wait till after my Beijing trip is over.

And Beijing will have to wait till next week is over.

And next week will have to wait till I get my answer.

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Just waiting.

Boys & Girls & Cemetary

Went for Cheng Beng on Sunday. My last Cheng Beng before I can happily skip next year's and next next year's and next next next year's (and so on) Cheng Beng forever! *squeals in delight*!

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I know Cheng Beng is a great way to stay in touch with your ancestors, but seriously, dont you think it's a little not very sincere to actually just go ONCE a year and only because it's Cheng Beng???

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And it's even worse when you have to be forced, dragged and threatened to go to the cemetery for Cheng Beng to pay your respects to someone that you don't even know!

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I do respect the fact that these people were my great-grandparents once upon a time ago, but honestly, going there, standing under the hot sun just to wait for your turn to hold the jost-stick, shake it up and down three times, and then walk away does NOT constitute as paying respect lorr.

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So, I may feel a little sad that this is my last Cheng Beng, but I am very very much happier to know that I won't ever need to go for this next year ever again!

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On another note, Fatty and I went to Bangsar to meet up with Gord & Cin for dinner at Nirvana's Banana Leaf. Naturally, they were late, and so, we went for a stroll in Bangsar Village.

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Okok...maybe not exactly a stroll to pass time but more of a stroll to go get something I want.

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I've been wanting this pair of shoes I've seen a long time ago, but it was out of my budget for last month and eversince then, I've been drooling over getting them. It haunted me night and day and it was in my mind every waking second that I knew I just HAD to get them.

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And so, with my pay recently out, we went for that stroll in Bangsar Village. It helped that Gord & Cin were late too.

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And guess what?!! *grins*

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I BOUGHT THEM!

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After dinner, we went to Socials for many many games of pool. And I love playing pool with Fatty cause he always lets me win - not intentionally either.

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So, it was Fatty and me against Gord and Cin.

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At the next table, there was this bunch of girls playing pool too and one of them was wearing a very nice lycra white top paired off with a knee-length denim skirt.

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And as it happened, she had to bend down to aim for her ball with her ass facing directly where Fatty and I were sitting.

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"See lah, baby, I'm a man lah. Tell me lah, how am I suppose to NOT look at that" while looking in the direction of that girl's ass.

"Yah, but she doesn't have a nice face"

"Aiyoh, just cover her face and do it for the country lah!"

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>_<'

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Fucker.

IF IT SHOULD BE

If it should be that I grow weak

And pain should keep me from my sleep

Then you must do what must be done

For this, the last battle, can't be won.

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You, will be sad, I understand

Don't let your grief then stay your hand

For this day, more than the rest

Your love and friendship stand the test.

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We've had so many happy years

What is to come can hold no fears

You would not want me to suffer so

When the time comes, please let me go.

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Take me where my needs they'll tend

Only, stay with me to the end

And hold me firm and speak to me

Until my eyes no longer see.

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I know in time you and I will see

It is a kindness you do to me

Although my tail it's last has waved

From pain and suffering I have been saved.

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Don't grieve if it should be you

Who has to decide this thing to do

We've been so close - we two these years

Don't let your heart hold any tears.

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Taken from a sympathy card sent to us from my CuzRoy.

In memory of Purdita Ho, April 1999 - March 2007.

She's home

For someone who's terrified of the rain, she was so brave to pull through what she went through the past week.

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It was obvious that she was in a lot of pain, and yet, she made no sound, she showed no reaction, and just stayed strong so as not to have us worried.

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It was a Sunday morning when we found her sick, not her usual self, lying lifelessly on the stairs. Her eyes all yellow, her ears, her tummy, all a sick yellow colour, the colour of death. And yet, when we called her name and came close to pet her, she made an effort to wag her tail to show us that she's happy. And we were too blind to notice that she was in pain.

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Daddy came home that evening, after being away in China for a week, and she made the effort to walk down the stairs to greet him, eventhough it took up a lot of her energy and it caused her pain. But she only made it halfway down, before her legs gave way and she collapsed. But she tried.

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Mummy and Jojo took her to the vet the next day, and it was confirmed that she was poisoned. By whom, we don't know, and we didn't care. We just wanted the doctor to work his magic and heal her. But it was too late, the poison was already in her blood and there was no way they could flush it out.

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She was hospitalised immeidately and was put on the drip.

And she stayed that way for 3 whole days.

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The doctor said she has to urine, because if she could do that, her kidneys are still working and she might be able to help herself recover. But three days, there was no urine, no energy, no life left in her.

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I went to see her everyday, encouraging her to urine.

And each time I saw her, I cried.

We cried.

Because it was soooo painful for us to see her like that.

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On the third evening, she couldn't bear to see us sad and so, she tried.

And she managed to urine.

And we jumped for joy!

But little did we know, it was already too late.

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On the fourth day, I spent a whole hour off lunch with her. And when she saw me, she got up and wagged her tail. Imagine my joy and happiness to see her like that. And I thought, she's on her way to recovery!

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I went home and updated mummy and daddy excitedly and they were so happy to hear the good news too.

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And then, Friday came.

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I rushed to see her, even excusing myself from the meeting in the office, after getting several urgent sms-es from Sarah. She went to see her. And she wasn't doing too well.

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They thought that if I went, and she saw me, she might be better.

But when I arrived, and saw her, I lost all control and tears flowed freely from my eyes.

Because what I saw was just too painful.

And I knew, deep in my heart, that there was no way she was going to get better.

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And so I did what I had to do.

I called mummy, and daddy, and Jojo, to come back immediately, to say their final goodbyes to her.

We had to stop her pain.

She was hardly breathing.

She couldn't even stand.

And she was bleeding profusely.

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And there was nothing the doctor could do.

The poison had already damaged her insides, causing everything to slowly rot away, slowly killing her.

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And so, it was on the 30th of March, that our beloved Purdy, was laid to rest.

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She was only 8 years old.

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But she's home now.

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Her ashes and bones are kept in a pure white urn, surrounded by white flowers, on a table where we can see her everyday, and where she can rest in peace, in her own home....with us.

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We will learn to love another, but you will never be replaced in our hearts and in our memories.

And we promise you this.....
We love you soooo much.....