What's happening?

Well, so, been a little confused lately

About trust. faith. loyalty.

Insecurities are running through me
And even when I look at him

I don't feel anymore secure than I should be

What's happening, I ask myself

Only to be faced with emptiness
No answers to soothe me

Is this what it's going to be like
From now till forever?

.

As we sat through lunch in silence
He looking everywhere else but at me
Me playing with the food on my plate
I feel a stab

And again, I ask myself, what's happening

Is it just the insecurities?

Or is it more?

And still, no answers.

.

Is this a mistake then?
Something that is going to ruin my life forever

Or is this normal?

But I know normal
And normal does not feel like this

.

So, please tell me

What's happening?